Lizzy has been doing very well and the Kali Phos 6X is still in place. We are not giving her any other supplements or remedies as of now.
Saturday was filled with happy family hang out time and we enjoyed a great lunch together. I asked my oldest daughter Amelia to put on some music while we prepared lunch. Amelia chose the Amelie soundtrack by Yanni Tiersen and the melodic piano music filled the house. I do not choose to play this music anymore because we played it for Lizzy when she was a baby and into her toddlerhood. When I hear this music and I am moved to tears every time. To many memories, too many emotions.
I heard the music and did not say anything. I was enjoying cooking the meal and did not give it any thought. I was making 4 different things so I was very busy and distracted. As the meal prep came to a close I suddenly felt angry. I was not aware what happened to get me there but I was there nonetheless. As I placed the bacon cheeseburgers, chicken caesar salad and other items on the table I was really tense. Todd inquired and I told him I did not know what was up.
We all sat down and said grace. Lizzy always sits on my left and Todd at my right. Midway into the meal Lizzy grabbed my left hand and placed it on her back under her shirt. She turned and smiled at me as if to say, remember when you would rub my back to this song. She was right. I did rub her back to the very song playing. My God. She was anywhere from 0 to 18 months. It amazed me that she remembered. I was crying and hugging her and she kissed me on the cheek. I was floored that she would remember anything from that time in her life. Todd sensed it was a “Lizzy Moment” and invited me outside with him. Before I joined him, I went up to Lizzy and asked her for a hug. She turned to me with her arms out and hugged me for quite a long time. This hug was one of genuine feeling. Not the usual lightly touching and only for two seconds. She knew I needed it badly. Our little girl is very aware of other people’s feelings. We have had few moments like this in the past. But this one was real and with complete feelings that she chose to share.
I did some preliminary research on memory and found that it is not common for most people to remember things from that time in their lives. Is it the autism factor? Meaning, some autistic people have a photographic memory or an incredible memory for color. Or is it the artistic factor. Musicians, artists and the like have great memories. Could be this because Todd is an artist.
What I gleaned from this interaction was that she remembers by hearing (auditory) and touch (tactile). We all do but this could be her dominant learning style. Now my thought is this. If she can remember from that time and pull mental files then I bet she remembers the shots (vaccines) also. As I stated before, if she was in a carcinocin state at the time of her birth and afterward, vaccines could be processed as a major violation to that person. Could be something could be nothing. Regardless, this situation has shown me to be more aware of the fact that she could be an auditory/tactile learner predominantly. I am anxious to see what her ND thinks of this. I am going to suggest energy testing her for carcinocen and see what happens. Couldn’t hurt.
There are many intelligence styles. We just need to figure out which one Lizzy is. You can check articles on Wikipedia which explains it very well. The founder Gardner has written numerous books on teaching children. This is the next topic I am going to address. We view Lizzy’s recovery the same as we view ourselves and our other 8 kids. Mind, body and spirit. Sometimes you need to give more attention to one than another until they are back in balance. I feel her body is in a better place now. This allows us to move on and encourage her to come out even more. She’s in there! Honestly, I think she thinks her environment is unsafe. She decided long ago to go in when it was too much. Don’t we all do this from time to time? The difference is she did it times 100. Everything Lizzy does is times 100.
The beauty is this. Her positive behavior and experiences as well as the negative will be something that packs a powerful punch. I feel that we have not even touched the surface of her potential to date. As she chooses to show us who she is we will be brought to our knees again. This is going to be more glorious than I had earlier imagined. It’s God’s time-table and Lizzy’s time-table not mine.
I know that Lizzy will be willing to join us completely some day. Until then we are diligent is deciphering what Lizzy needs. This does not mean what therapy others think she should be participating in. I do not mean homeopathy, I am referring to all of the other therapies out there that are supposed to help your child “perform”. We do not want her to be a parrot and mimic. We want her to be Lizzy and feel comfortable being who she is. Isn’t that what we all want?
I hope and pray that Lizzy will continue to amaze us. May God grant us the wisdom, patience and discernment that we need to help our baby girl reach her full potential.
Blessings to all.