Here is what we have today!
note: all symptoms are old and resurfacing with less severity
Positive Behaviors: Affectionate, obeys requests after asking one time only, willingness to engage in social behavior
Current Remedy: Cina 200C
# of days since last dosing: 12 (03/15/2011)
Days of Uninterrupted Sleep: 3
Mother’s Log: 03/28/2011
Good morning Lizzy! Even though Lizzy sleeps all night she is very whinny in the afternoon. As the evening progresses it finally levels off again. Man this little girl and I are on a roller coaster ride.
These remedies are really moving things around. I have been taking homeopathic remedies for almost 3 years and I have never had an experience like this before. The carcinocin is taking me back to a place where I do not want to go. Every injustice, betrayal and hurt that I experienced or inflicted has hit the surface again. Having to go back and examine days of being young and stupid is never fun. What a time of idiocy and naiveté. Why the carcinocin is bringing this to the surface is not quite clear to me yet. What makes this homeopathic experience unique is that I have not seen my osteopath at the same time. In my experiences, osteopathy kicks homeopathy into high gear and the healing seems to take place faster. These two healing modalities dove tail each other and I see now that I must get Lizzy and myself back to our D.O., now.
Lizzy and I went to the market together and we have not done this by ourselves for quite a while. With Lizzy’s mood du jour we do not do it as often. This is something I think we are ready to do again frequently. The short trip went well until we had to wait in line to pay for our purchases. She wanted the grapes we had in the cart and waiting was not something she wanted to do. The cashier commented ” Oh you should be able to wait for this by now.” The cashier does not know that Lizzy suffers from autism. How could she? From a distance, Lizzy looks like any other little girl to her. But we all know the reality. Hopefully in a couple of years this will all be behind her. I must say that I am very pleased with Lizzy and her ability to not become as overstimulated as she did in the past. Good work Lizzy!
Lizzy has been more interested in the computer and all that goes with it. She is mainly interested in the printer and the keyboard. I can’t sit down to do anything at our pc without her wondering what I am doing and why. This is very cool and I am glad that she is willing to take an interest in things outside of her routine. We are going to strike while the iron is hot and keep doing things with her online. She loves her IXLmath work and dancing to various songs on youtube but I need to find other things that include language besides the Starfall reading program.
Lizzy’s finger spelling interest is still hot so we keep going until it ends. This is how it goes. Lizzy will tell me a word and I will say the word and spell it with sign language. I do not do it quickly. This allows her to tell me the next letter in the word and interact with the process. She knows how to spell quite a few words on her own. My guess it is about 50 to 60 at this point. She can read about 200+ words so it is just a matter of her choosing to do it.
Bet there is more knowledge than what she is sharing to date. I know this little woman is hearing everything and socking it all away. Her behavior in the past has shown me that when she starts pulling mental files they are numerous and accurate. I presume one day all of this acquired information is going to come flowing out of her in a constant stream. Unlike the few drops she shares with us currently. This will be a wonderful day. All in good time.
So here we are looking at old stuff and trying to learn from it. I feel that one needs to go back in order to go forward. Some disagree. They want to leave the past right where it is and never look back.
The philosopher George Santayana said it best, “Those who cannot remember the past are condemned to repeat it.” This quote has been in the back of my mind since highschool. Though I am not always willing, I know it must be done in order for true healing to take place. I can not believe how many of my old feelings and experiences are coming to the surface. Things I thought were okay have resurfaced and shown me that I need to give them another look. Plus, I need to surrender and let go completely.
But how does one do this? My approach at this point is this. I need to reexamine my feelings and try to come to a conclusion as to how it impacted me. I believe most of the things I have trouble with go back to the same source. The trick is, I need to uncover it. Homeopathy is just the beginning, it is not a magic bullet that fixes everything immediately. It just brings it to the surface so one can address what is being presented. This is the same for Lizzy. After talking about it, the next step is prayer. I pray that God will open my heart and mind to what is needed so I can see what needs to be tackled first. With God’s help Lizzy and I can let go, and be at peace.
Case in point. Our oldest daughter Amelia has been a tremendous help with my journey. She is studying psychology and thank God for that because she is wonderful to talk to. I have been sharing my past pains with her and she is a wonderful listener. How blessed her patients will be to have her caring for them. She is an awesome young woman. Being only 17 years old, she has an innate ability for this. I am so glad the Lord provided someone I love so much to help. I am feeling much better since our conversation and have realized that I just needed to get it out. If something is leaving a bad taste in your mouth it is best to spit it out. So I did. Thanks again Amelia. I love you so.
It must be very frustrating for Lizzy not to be able to communicate completely how she feels. Frustration is what I would feel if I were her. I still am very encouraged by Lizzy’s progress even though we are going back again. We must be thorough and eliminate all traces of these parasites before we can move on to the next CEASE clearing. Lizzy will be seeing her homeopath next week and with the stool test results we will be ready to tackle these parasites for the final time.
May God grant us more healing and strength for another day of recovery.