Well Lizzy was not able to go to sleep last night. She was very hyper and screaming to get her way.
Skipping in a circle, spinning, running you name it, she was doing it last night until midnight.
I eventually put her to bed and hoped for the best. No such luck. I administered a Cuprum dilution ( 3 drops in 1 cup, one tsp. out) within 5 minutes she was calm. I sat on her bed and was rubbing her back.
She turned and looked at me, “You alright, you okay?”
“Yes, I’m okay, are you okay? You are the one screaming.” She did not reply.
She positioned herself in a comfy spot and I cuddled up next to her. Here we were again, Lizzy, her plush animals and me. If I stopped touching her she would take my hand and place it back on her back.
She likes when I use my index finger and middle finger and gently run them along her spine. She prefers this to just rubbing. I apply a little pressure so it doesn’t tickle, but within 15 minutes she was very calm.
Again she moved herself closer to me and looked at me as if to say. Sorry for today!
“It’s okay Baby go to sleep, just go to sleep”, I said.
It is amazing, how God gives you little bits to keep you going. Thanks!
Lately, I have been very emotional about Lizzy. I just want her to get better. When using homeopathy we go back in order to go forward. Logically, I KNOW THIS!! Still that fear inside me slips in and momentarily I feel that she will regress even further and she will be stuck there. Pray, pray, pray.
I have read two books that have changed me intensely regarding Lizzy and all of my kids. One was Impossible Cure by Amy Lansky and He’s Not Autistic But…. By Tenna Merchant. What these two courageous women have in common is that they both strongly recommend constant prayer to recover and heal their children. They are so correct. That is what I do also, it helps Lizzy and myself. Hope, hope, hope.
Todd decided to shave off his beard and Lizzy noticed.
She came up to him and touched his chin “I want it!” Amazing. When she was a baby she would run her fingers through his beard and pull on it. Very cute!
Why does she choose to talk only when something really affects her? Strong willed personality? These layers need to be peeled back just like an onion. One at a time. Isn’t it funny how they both make one cry.
Lizzy has been very territorial and today she pushed Katie twice. Katie was not accepting that and pushed her back. We are going to keep them under constant supervision and separate when possible. Looks like Lizzy is in for a rude awakening. Katie is not willing to do what Matthew did. Lizzy is messing with the wrong girl. Katie is very sweet and kind but she also stands up for herself. Good for her!
As of 8pm Lizzy has calmed down a little bit. I gave her another Cuprum dilution (3 drops in one cup of water, one tsp. out) she is like a crazed weasel. Screaming, pushing, protesting, all of it! Dear God help us!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
As I sit here with my heart in pieces, Martin entered the room. Matthew was playing with Amelia, and Matthew says to Martin ” What’s up Buddy”. He has never said that before. I needed that chuckle and ray of sunshine to my heart.
Man, sometimes this is hard!
I fall apart , put myself back together and go on. God is giving me the strength. He is carrying me through moments like this, I just can’t do it alone. Even my “Angels of Mercy”, can not penetrate this woe.
Tomorrow is a new day and we will greet it and do our best. What else can we do?